Today...

Today I woke up completely pissed off...not that I wanted to but it's because of what happened this past weekend. I'm tired of having dreams that it really is true. It hurts and because I woke up pissed off, Brian didn't like it and I tried to explain to him how I feel and he keeps turning things around on me and bringing up my past. Which the part of my past that he brings up is when he wasn't even in my life but he knows about. It just really is bothering me. I hate feeling this way maybe when I go back to work these feelings will go away because I won't constantly be able to have it on my mind.